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24 Apr 2007, 12:34 am / Dont know
already, i started a new job and made friends with a bounce of girls as usual. But made best of friends with this girl named Kayla, i knew soon as she and I caught eyez their would be some problems. How, okay..... I don't believe in love, i think over-rated, and full of shit, but of course there is always someone or something that can pull you into something you denie any doin wit. Oh my God, she is so hot, preppy, brown eyez, great personality, head on straight, and haves so much in common with me. We talk everyday at work, my drive way, phone for hours about real deep shit. She now knows about my lifestyle, i explain how sex is like exstasy, how i get in a zone of extreme lust, foreplay, and what motivates me to do it and she said because i can't get what i want, how i want is why i can't be with one girl only, she's bites her lips and says wit same words "the right woman is comin' to sweep you off your feet". She knows she is the type of girl that can do it and I even told her you have to confuse my trap (what i put women into to find out do they really really want me or just sex)(basically how they look at me, that's another blog soon) Now the bullshit; she's in love wit a guy that treats her like shit. Marjority she's cryin', complainin', about how he plays wit her heart; she's not into sex and lust such as I, and most important she doesn't date black guys. Now the catch, she looks at me dead in the damn eyez all the time, it seems like she wants me to ask her out or tell her i do have a crush on her, the way she flirts wit me and looks at me tells me she does feel something more than a friend for me, but then she throws me off when she talks about her ex-boyfriend or (ex as she says). I don' want to break up a friendship over feelings, but honestly the more i talk to her, the more i learn about her and vica versa, and the more i want her. She once told me she makes guys come to her because she's shy and i told her that will change. Even people at work think we are dating or assume we are, but we're just friends. I put myself in a tight position. Real talk, not that i'm in love but she could seriously make look at it differently, what the fuck should i do? put a friendship on the line or let it come to me if it comes around?
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